Knowing that God's timing is best and REALLY believing it can be two very different things. I know that my way is not always the best way, but sometimes I need a reminder.
I wanted Andrew to come home this week (ok--I wanted him to come home three months ago), and I was upset that the embassy was closed this week. It meant waiting an extra week.
I prayed for God's timing....I swear, I did....but I hoped for my timing.
Here's why God's is better: (and by the way, God doesn't just have one or two reasons. There's a whole list)
My mom's last chemo treatment was Sept 6 and she sounds stronger than she has in a very long time. She will be able to really enjoy her newest grandson.
I gave Andrew the middle name of Charles after both of my grandfathers. I didn't know my dad's dad very well. He died when I was two. But I LOVED my mom's dad---Grandpop Wilson. I miss him so often. My grandfather loved me and I felt it every time I was with him. I'm flying to Guatemala on September 24--my grandfather's birthday.
(you just got goosebumps, didn't you?)
Starting my maternity leave next week means that it will take me right up to the day before Thanksgiving break, which means 9 weeks with my son instead of 8.
1/3 of my school team has not been there yet this year; either because they were on maternity leave or because they weren't hired yet. They both start back to work next week. That doesn't make much of a difference for me, but it sure does for my two wonderful classroom assistants and the woman who will be subbing for me.
And most importantly, Andrew has been sick. I don't think it's serious, but he has had a double ear infection and some sort of respiratory problem that has required a nebulizer. I would never have put him on a plane with ear infections. It sounds like he is at the end of whatever he has had...he has another doctor's appointment on Thursday and I will know more then. Next week is definitely a better week for him to fly than this week.
"Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known." 1 Corinthians 13:12
A very loose paraphrase of this verse would be: "Hindsight is 20/20". It certainly is amazing when you can see God's plan unfold and it all makes absolute sense.